// I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.//

Today, I want to change. I’m sick and tired of not feeling good enough. 

I am an amazing, healthy, young, intelligent and beautiful human. Nothing and no one can stop me from being those things. I need to remember that. 

So today marks the day that I fully WANT to change. now the plan just has to go into action. 

I am good enough. 

its time to get organized. enough is enough. 

food, water, cleaning, exercise, school. these are all the things I need to work on and slowly but surely I will do them all. 

food action: count calories again

water action: drink more, A LOT more. 

cleaning: you cannot feel organized if your surroundings are not organized. a clean home is a good life.

exercise: I need to get back into my routine. 2 days a week is not enough. It needs to be 4 at least. I want to do that. 

school: I have little less than a month left of school. I need to get my shit together and do it right. I’ve been too distracted by far too stupid of things and I need to get it straight. the only person I have been hurting is me and I want to make it right. 

sorry if this was whiney or stupid, but I need to put it out there because I have been tossing and turning all night. Shit’s gotta change. Tumblr therapy. 

Today was my third day of no soda. and boom, thats awesome. I actually drank water instead of just getting soda at work (which I was SO tempted to just have a sip of coke, willpower baby.)  However, I have been feeling a bit of lagging in my day due to no steady caffeine intake. Took my B vitamins and it seemed to help. 
…and this picture is just because I wanted to. life has been feeling weird lately, and I have anxiety because I want to control everything and I can’t. I read an article today and it just said “let it go” (in a more eloquent way) and thats exactly what I am going to do. You can’t control anything (or anyone in my case) so it just becomes wasted energy and anxiety. Tomorrow is my day off and I am going to enjoy it. 
so if you don’t know now you know. 

Today was my third day of no soda. and boom, thats awesome. I actually drank water instead of just getting soda at work (which I was SO tempted to just have a sip of coke, willpower baby.)  However, I have been feeling a bit of lagging in my day due to no steady caffeine intake. Took my B vitamins and it seemed to help. 

…and this picture is just because I wanted to. life has been feeling weird lately, and I have anxiety because I want to control everything and I can’t. I read an article today and it just said “let it go” (in a more eloquent way) and thats exactly what I am going to do. You can’t control anything (or anyone in my case) so it just becomes wasted energy and anxiety. Tomorrow is my day off and I am going to enjoy it. 

so if you don’t know now you know. 

(Source: suck-my-piru-dick, via 150lbsto120lbs)

// day 2 of no soda. //

Yesterday, I decided that enough was enough. Drinking soda pop is no more. and it was difficult, but I did it. today is a new day. and it will get easier each day.

we shall see what it does to my body. 

// its a funny thing//

I woke up early this morning without any reason really, and I happened to remember that my friend wanted to meet me for some dance classes this morning. AND I WOKE UP IN THE PERFECT AMOUNT OF TIME TO GET READY. 

coincidence? I think not. 

2 hours of dance. loving life. XD

// do you ever feel…//

that if you were thinner, you would get the man that you want? 

I hate this thought. 

I love this. 

I love this. 

(Source: laydowninthetallgrass, via healthylivingforyou)

// nsv//

Putting on shorts from last summer, and they are a little too big. :) 

p.s. I hate uteruses. feel like you have 15 pounds of water weight? check. 

better now than next week. spring break bitches. 

we all know my obsession with Beyonce. Literally, I think this was made about me. 

GPOY

(via notwithoutloveee)

…why. 

I’m tired of this game. 

// Julian is the coolest person ever!//

and I should really disable my infinite-scrolling dash.

Name: Michelle
Age: 23
Getting grown and sexy
the right way